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Friday, March 30, 2007

Went out with sista yesterday to have her laptop fixed at SP at around 10am. After that, we caught a movie at westmall, the Mr Bean's holiday. It was alrights. 3 out of 5 stars. Borrowed some books before I went home.

In the evening, met up with BB to catch another movie call the 'Freedom Writers' which was truely inspirational. It really showed how a courageous white teacher whom intends to change the prospective on how her students think that all Whites are bias and racist. In general, it was a fantastic movie. After that, we had dinner at Food Republic. Then we cam-whored on the way to the MRT station. Arrived home at about 12am after seeing her home.

I'll upload the pics that we cam-whored some other time. In the meantime, I'm going to work tonight. Wonder what kind of function would it be. Hmm.

Have stop lying 12:23 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Watched TMNT at marina square with xueqi, glynis and max at around 220pm. After the movie, we walked around the mall for about two hours. Glynis brought a t-shirt at PMK which looked fantastic on her. Then, we proceed to the arcade with the intention of playing pool, but since it was so costly, ( $9.60 per hour ), we decided to skip it and play arcade instead. After an hour, we proceeded back to the station where we cam-whored on our way home (:

Here are some of the pictures that we took.

We really enjoyed ourselves. We really did. (:

Have stop lying 9:24 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Went out with weekiat to town today. Brought a t-shirt at 16bucks at bugis street and walked around suntec for a while. Before that, we walked around Far east and had lunch at yoshinoya. Dinner at Gelare. They have these darn nice waffles with chocolate. Yummy.

Tomorrow I would be meeting xueqi and her netfriend and god-bro for a movie. I cant wait! (:

Have stop lying 9:52 PM

The Essence of Thick Face, Black Heart

Some of my favourites quotations are,

'Character is not made out of sunshine and roses, but like steel, forged in fire; between the hammer and the anvil'.

'A Black Heart is ruthless, but not necessarily evil.'

'A sucessful life is one that is lived through understanding and pursing one's own path, not chasing after the dreams of others'.

There are alot more other quotations that i've yet to mentioned. But these are just some of my favourite ones. They are simple, yet logical.

This book, called the Thick Face Black Heart, written by Chu Chin-Ning, writes about how it is neccessary to instill the Thick Face, Black Heart into our daily lifes. May you be a businessman or just someone whom is self-employed and into most aspects of lifes. It is necessary for us to be emotion-detach free from our goals. In that way, and only then, would we really suceed and get what we want.

I am sick and tired of listening to people whinning and complaining on how negative these 'black hearted' people are. They are as compared to the lowest in society or 'yi wen bu zhi', as the chinese saying goes for not having to even worth a cent. Having black heart means that you are willing to do anything to get to the top, BUT not necessarily through evil ways. But through cunningness and self-preservation, one WILL succeed in life if he is black-hearted.

Thick face would mean how you protect yourself from criticism. This Thick face has been used by many famous people that we all knew. People such as Ronald Reagan, former president of the US, is immensely popular due to his personal 'unshakeable image' of himself and acts decisively even when trouble comes along, though many people/of his aides knew that he was not a good adminstrator. Unlike another former President Jimmy Carter, whom was a excellent adminstrator and took on positions before we became president of the US, he was 'overwhelmed', as the book says, 'by the awesome responsibilities of his office'. He then became inmensely unpopular with the people as they saw him as a weak, incompetent and indecisive leader.

That is some what an abstract that I got from the book. I hope you guys out there understand it.

Have stop lying 12:14 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

I am such an asshole today. I really am.

Don't ask me why, I just know that I am. The attitude that I've shown to my friends today. That just displays one thing. I am just an jerk whom simply does not have any self-constraint on my own emotions.

I just suddenly felt like listening to the song, way back into love, over and over again. It helps to calm me down and helps smooth the beast that's inside me.

I'm going out tomorrow with weekiat. Hopefully the outing can help me forget what ever has happened to me today. I just want to get it off my mind. I really do.

Have stop lying 8:14 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Went out with BB and nic to marina square to have a walk. Met em at around 6 and reached there at around 620pm. BB had kfc while we guys looked on. Then, everyone of us was like so quiet for a period of time. But soon, the storm was over and everyone of us are enjoying ourselves. Walked around the nike shop and many other sports related stores to check out sports enquipment. After that, we proceed to the arcade to chiong game. Left at around 945pm to see BB home. Reached home at around 11pm plus plus.

I have to go and pay respects to my grandmother tomorrow. It's something what you guys call a 'death anniversary' or stuffs like that. I don't know. I miss her. She's the best relative I ever had. And I will miss her forever.

That's all for today. Ciaos.

Have stop lying 12:33 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Went out with BB and nic today and we had a splendid time together. But before that, went study with fiq early in the morning at around 10am. Had breakfast at mac and went to arcade to chiong game for a while before heading back to study. I left at around 315pm to go look for BB and nic at tanjong pagar mrt station.

Met them at around 407pm and board the train to vivo's banquet to have lunch together. After that, we spent a short period of time at the arcade before proceeding to take bus to Funan. BB and nic looked for fujitsu offers and we also went and have a look a COMAT's booth after we met Peter near the KFC area. Seems that only there is only karen and her friend only. lols.

Shortly after that, we went had our 'dinner' at raffles convention centre's basement and went window shopping after we are done with our dinner. Nic went home and I sent BB home. Reached home at around 1045pm.

Wonder what kind of day would it be like for tomorrow? Hmms.

Have stop lying 1:19 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Over fifteen hours of 'fun', spanning over the past 2 days, but only 3 words to describe myself in the process of having 'fun'.

' I totally sucked '

Yes. I sucked. My mood swings had acted up on me again, just like in the past. The feeling of no-self-confidence, depressed, feeling low and loneliness all came together and acted up on me since yesterday morning till today. I don't know why it happened. Nor what really caused it. But most of the time, it's because I've been left out, pissed off or just simply in a bad mood. I want to know the reason why, so as to change myself for the better.

When friends tries to comfort me, or even try talking to me, I would not even give them a nudge. I would most probably just give you a glimpse or a stare, and a very serious look before looking back into my handphone for any messages. That sucked. And I want to change that. But how? That's the question.

5 years is a long time. Yes it really is, especially for someone whom has such a problem, 5 years can meant a great deal of losses in friends due to this stupid problem of mine. I just wish I knew what to do.

And I really really do. *Sighs*

Have stop lying 10:40 AM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Been going out for these couple of days, or should I say weeks. As for yesterday, went out with cass to watch music and lyrics. The song 'Way back into love' was a classic. It just stuck into my head, just as it did to cass. We also had royal banana for lunch and fried chicken for dinner. I even brought her a stitch, which she named after me, NYNY. lols.

As for today, went out with syafiq early in the morning at around 8am to go for his interview for the aerospace course at ITE Yishun. After that, had breakfast at mac before we went paid a friend a visit at her working place. Soon after that, we proceed to the arcade to have a great time together. Took the mrt back to batok to bank in my money and some other stuffs. But before that, went to the arcade again and spent a couple of dollars there. Then soon, it was time to meet the other guys, nic, cass and the fong brothers at Springleaf tower to get pay. Also had dinner with Syafiq at Han's. Soon after getting pay, the fong brothers went seperate ways with us. After getting to nic's house to get the seoul garden's vouchers, we also went Bugis to shop. It was at this point of time when Syafiq left us, at around 530pm.

Soon, we reached Bugis and after several hours of shopping, we proceeded to seoul garden to have our dinner for the next 2 hours. Then, we continued shopping again till it was around 940pm when I had to see cass home. Reached home at around 11pm. Tired.

Tomorrow's going to be one hell of a intensive yet exciting day. I cant wait.

Have stop lying 12:10 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Once upon a time, there was this boy whom seemed forever lonely. In his younger days, he played mostly by himself or his family members. Though he had friends in school whom accompanied him after school hours, there were just accuqitances whom randomly pick him to play with them. None had understood him at all. Some even bullied him, jeered at him, spit at him, despised him. Everything. Yet the boy never pulled himself down as he continued to pull himself up everytime he was rammed down by his critics. Soon, that was the end of his primary school days as he graduated in 2001.

2002. A brand new year and the boy entered a secondary school. He thought everything would have changed and now, he would be able to make new friends and forget his dark pasts of being an anti-social. He was wrong. So dead wrong.

It seemed that the nightmare was restarting itself. The boy faced critics from people and even though he did make some close friends, none became his best friends for he does not believe in them.

'Best friends is the best way to betray someone', he said. 'They make use of your trust and stab you in the back, like the fool that you are'.

Throughout his lower secondary life, he was alone. Yet he didnt care. He started to develop this pessimistic view on human beings. On how miserable, pathetic, stupid and sadistics these 'things' are as compared to animals.

Then in his upper secondary years, he started to make more friends and was beginning to like the 'humans' even more than he formerly did. He even had a best friend! However, things were going to 180 degree change.

His best friend betrayed him. His close friends had other closer friends. He was not invited to parties, outings, gatherings and other events and functions. He was again, abandoned, for the second time in his life. He had had enough.

He then developed this thick face, black heart theory to all. Having thick face meant that criticism towards him would be like throwing paper knifes at him. Black heart would simply mean that his human compassion would hit rock bottom, meaning that he wouldn't even care less even if a human being is left, bruised and battered, or knocked down on the road, and needs help.

So far, nothing has changed him. Yes, he has shaped his appearances to cater to other people's comments, yet his heart is forever the same. Black. Nothing in this world would be able to change that ever again. People tried, and they failed, till today.

He is now currently leading a life that he truely deserves. A rich, vibrant life of his own. So what he doesnt have many close friends? With a eternal supply of wealth, it is just enough for him to live his life to the fullest. Forget about friendship, kinship and other human beings. What matters to him now is he and himself and him.

And the himself, is me.

Have stop lying 10:32 PM

Today was a short, yet intense day. Spent most of my time at home, daydreaming. In the afternoons spent most of the time watching my little sis playing maple and we took turns playing. We had dinner at 4pm, which was kinda early and later in the evenings, had a explosive badminton match with dad.

During the match, I suddenly had this vision of my past. How I had grown up to what I am today. How supportive my parents were when times sucks big time for me, when there wasn't anyone there for me. They were there for me. I have'nt had much friends in primary school, and they were considered the 'best friends' that I ever had. It was not until my secondary school years that I had a bunch of close friends. However, even then we were not very close with one another and soon, we had our own group of friends.

Dad had always preached to me the meaning of life. Though I find him annoying at times, but however, without his 'preaching', I might be smoking and drinking with bad company today. He talks in such a calm yet forceful approach which convinces me many times how 'wrong' some of my way of thinkings were. He taught me things that cannot be taught in schools nor textbooks. He is my dad, and I love him to bits.

As for my Mum, though she's kind of naggy at times, she has the best of interests for us, me and my sister. Through her effective handling of our house's monthly income, she is the one whom helped preserve this family as a whole. She's the one doing the housework early in the morning and doing the dishes at night without complaining. She's a role model and I love her to bits too.

Lastly, there is my sister whom I've vent my fustrations on and at the same time, shared my happiness with. She is the one that accompanied me through tough times, listening to my personal problems and helping me in schoolwork. Thank you sis. Thank you.

After the badminton match, had a bathe and proceed to westmall to buy a new basketball. Also had KFC before going home.

Tomorrow's going to be another busy day I suppose. Getting my pay tomorrow and accompanying friend to hotel to training. That's all I have to say. Ciaos.

Have stop lying 10:12 PM

Met Cass at around 1130am to go watch the Huanting School at cine, which starts at 130pm. Before that, we had our breakfast at kobayashi and then after that, proceed to the arcade for a couple of hours. Soon, the movie was going to start and overall, the movie was not bad. I'll give it a rating for 3 out of 5 stars in terms of scariness. Then we went walk around Heeren's HMV and other outlets before proceeding to PS to have some light snacks.

After that, we went Vivo for a walk, after having dinner at Banquet, which consist of chicken rice for the both of us, we also played the arcade for a while before heading to the Vivo garden to enjoy the stars. Though the stars were shining brightly tonight, most of it are covered by thick, hazy clouds. Yawns. Soon it was time to go home and after seeing cass home, the time was around 1010pm. I've reached home at around 1050pm.

Guess that's all I have to say. Ciaos.

Have stop lying 2:09 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

I'm feeling rather disturbed now. Don't know why. Don't ask me. But the events that's happening around me seems to be so so unreal now. So many stuffs going on and it's getting pass me so quickly that I couldn't take a breather. Even less time to analyze the problem.

When im bored at times, I like to ask myself questions. Questions that's seeps into my leeches into my stony, black heart which had died eons ago. Questions like, why do people always seem to want to try to save their faces by doing things that wanted to do, but had not have the guts to do so, things like that. I like the process of self-enquiry. My mind being my consultant, and my heart being my direction.

The process of love is so funny sometimes. If you don't have it, you would want it. If you have it, you would abuse it. If you lose it, you would seek to treasure it. If you want it, it would never really come to you that easily, since it often comes with a price.

Having being heartbroken after a breakup tends to be very heart-wrecking and sad experience for many people, but not me. Call me heartless, but I've already lost all my conscience in all living beings, especially humans. In the compassion zone, you'll find none in me. None. There is just nothing left in me.

No, I am not going to rattle on, talking about me, myself and I. I am going to talk about what's love. The thing that makes people crazied, frenzied, change and sometimes, obsessive. Please don't get me wrong. It is not that love has only negative aspects of it, but also, it has it's good positive aspects.

Love makes people think for the other party. It makes you less selfish as well. However, that does not apply to everybody.,It might just make them very obessive and into a control freak that will control all aspects of the other party's life. Some people abuse the meaning of love as being controlling, domineering and by using sheer violence to control the other party. It just totally destroys the whole concept of what's love all about.

Love makes the world a nicer place. And I agree with that. Without love, this world would be so cold and lifeless. They say that love is in the air. And hell, how true it is.

Lastly, love fills that emptiness that's inside us. Love makes us feel wanted and to be wanted. It CHANGES us. It EXCITES us in many ways. You see old-time couples had their emptiness filled up with love and the love for one another. It is just simply fasinatiing.

Yawns, I'm tired. Perhaps I should just sleep early tonight. Ciaos.

Have stop lying 12:25 AM

Studied in JE library at around 10am today while awaiting for Syafiq to come along. When he arrived at around 1045am, we then started our revision till around noon, when we had our dinner at KFC, followed by some arcade.

Nic and Cass soon came at around 330pm and after having a walk around the JEC's arcade, we went to IMM and had a walk. Soon, Nic left us and I and Cass went to JP to walk further. See her home at around 10pm.

Tomorrow's going to be another long studying day. Phew~!

Have stop lying 12:18 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

Went town today with Nic and Cass. But before that, went to her mum's shop at Tanjong Pajar. After that, we went had chicken rice. Then, we went back to her mum's shop to wait for Nic. After that, we took the MRT to Dhoby Ghout, Plaza Singapura for a walk. Then we headed to the arcade.Just before the movie, we went to NYDC for dinner, had a light desert, a mudpie which looks something like this.

The cookie-?-? mudpie. LOL.

Later after that, went to cine-leisure and decided to watch the movie ' Stomp the Yard' which starts at about 7pm. After the movie, we had dinner at the nearby foodcourt.

Me and Cass~!

Here are some pics that we took on our way to, and home.

Screw you!

Altogether!

Guess that's all I have to say. Tomorrow gotta go study with friend le. Gotta sleep early. Nights.

Have stop lying 1:52 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I had a fantastic time with cass today. It totally rocks my socks. Hah. Met her at around 12 at cityhall station as she is receiving her prezzies from her friend chong, and after buying the sun protection lotion that would basically 'keeps us alive' in this god-damn hot weather, we approached Paya Lebar via bus 43 to reach East Coast Park.

We reached there at about 1pm. Began laid down the sleeping bag as a cover for us to lay our asses on, and after she changed, had our lunch. It was just some simple delicacies that I've prepared early in the morning for the entire outing. So perhaps that's what you call a budget yet delicious picnic. We had chicken pie, mexican wings and sandwiches. Yummy.

We went down to play the water after that. But even before we played for even 5 minutes, it started rainy. Fortunately it was only a passing by thundercloud, so it stopped quickly. Decided to camp near to the sea, the sands area, so as to be able to watch our stuffs while having fun at the same time.

After a couple of hours of playing water, we also started building sandcastles. After that, we dried ourselves and enjoyed a sun-tan at about 3-4pm. By then, we moved to the big rock to have a better view of the ocean. It looks just simply, ravishing. Hahs. Started taking pics when we saw this gang of pro-bikers trying to show off at our area, somewhere less than 2 metres away from us. I just hope that they WOULD hurt themselves doing those stupids stunts. LOL!

Anyways, long story short, the day soon turned dark and after watching the beautiful sunset, we also watched the stars. They were some of the most beautiful stars I've seen since I was young. I've never thought that something so tiny would be so miracously beautiful. Twinkling and sparkling in the dark skies. It just totally encites me.

After spending another 2-3 hours watching stars, we went to mac to have dinner at about 930pm. Walked to the bus station when we saw this handphone lying there on the seat, so we waited for the person to came back and get back his phone after he called to ask about it. After 15mins or so, we did something nice when we returned him his phone. Hehs!

Reached home at about 10plus. Dead tired. Yet really happy. Hahs. Pictures of this great outing would be updating next time. That's all for today, Ciaos.

Have stop lying 1:44 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Wow, it has been almost 4 months since i've last blogged here. Had been blogging at the friendster blog for months every since the end of O levels. Anyways, here is just a summarized version of what I had been doing this past couple of days and months.

January, work work and more work. Chiong work with syafiq while awaiting for results. It was really tiring, yet really worth it. The work experience, meeting new friends, and everything. It was just so so enjoyable.

Febuary, more work. But it was much more slack than Jan. We had quite a couple of OCs ( Outdoor Catering ) and dinners to take care of. It was great.

March, is the month of relaxing, no more work for me already. Except for the IT show that I've worked at from the 8th-11th of march. Had met new friends, made a whole butt of jokes and loads more. Here are some pictures that we took on the last day.

The entire team of COMAT.

Nic and Me. Er, I am on the right by the way, LOL!

The guys!

The girls!
I had a really good time with em all. Hah. Not to mention spending quite alot of time on eating with em too. In the end, didnt really earn much after the deduction of our spendings. Nevertheless, it was worth it.
Gotta go orh orh le. Going to have a long day tomorrow. Ciaos.

Have stop lying 1:48 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

O level is coming right up, in 4 more days. First paper, social studies, following by maths paper 1. Had been studying really hard for these 2 weeks. Hardly went out at all, in fact. With the exception for today when I went to the library to study with friend. After that went jogging for around an hour or so. Felt refreshed and ready to go.

Can't figure out anything to blog out today. Maybe it's just because of the O level's pressure mounting on me and has 'blocked the creative juices inside me that has allowed me to blog'. I don't know.

Maybe I'll blog when the first paper starts, just maybe, to comment on the difficulty of the paper.

That's all.Ciaos.

Have stop lying 9:30 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

Had an explosive, or should I say, intensive week of studying, outing and working out. Went out with friends for 2 straight days, monday and tuesday right after a social studies remedial to town and bugis and had loads of fun. Also studied with friends, my brother Anna which took place about a week ago, and at home, alone. Going back to work tomorrow, and hope that things would go as smoothly as possible, which is never going to happen anyways. Just hoping for the best.

Time sure flies. Got around 9-10 more days before O level Social studies and maths paper 1 starts, which are our first papers. Worked pretty hard on maths recently, especially on the paper section. As for paper 2, would be working on it next week.The television and the radio are my loyal companions when Im studying and im glad I have them by my side.I just want to make sure that I make full use of the time given to make and make the best out of it, and that is to study hard, as hard as possible, and smart.

Really darn nervous about the work tomorrow, though I had been there for a year or so, it's not there's isnt any company for me that makes me uneasy about working tomorrow morning, but it's what those freaking morons would have installed for me the next morning. May even be working with some moron teamleader whose woman-crazied and biased towards girls. Such as the life as a part-timer.

Oh well. Guess that is all I can say for now.Ciaos.

Have stop lying 10:25 AM

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